he is nearly 10, he has AS, is very high functioning at school, very bright and able etc and i am finding him v hard atm. every day seems to be the same with him, he is aggressive and rude to me and dh but esp his yoger brother, he makes things worse evrry single time by answering back, hitting out at me, telling me to shut up. i spend so much time saying to hime 'you are making it worse please be quiet now' or 'i am getting cross now please stop' etc etc. i am worn out. i can feel a huge rage inside of me when it happens and find it hard to control MY temper, and sometimes i am ashamed to say have lashed back at him not hard but you know. i feel so guilty i know its wrong, i kind of know he cant help it. but i find it so so hard to accept that he does the things he does because he dor=esnt understand- he is the most articulate child and very bright- how the hell can he not understand??? his consultant has referred him to CAMHS but its going to be a few months yet. i really dont like him very much atm and feel bad for saying it but i just need to say it you know? i was an evil horrible teenager, and atm he reminds me of me when i was 13/14. its not going to get better either is it? how can i start liking/loving him again? he always seems to be on the peripherary (sp??) of family life- ds2 has AS too and i always thought he was 'worse' but now i realsie that was just the effect of ds1 on him. he is lways on the outside and when and if he tries to get back in he always gets it wrong and makes it worse for himself again. . i dont explain it very well but not sure how else to put it.
bloody hell he has just come up to me now like nothing has even happened
and now i feel bad because i know that alot of you have far more stressful/difficult /serious things to deal with but its really getting me down and RL friends just say 'oh they all do that' to make me feel better which i know full well they dont and it just makes me cross then.
sorry for wittering on. thanks for reading this far. going to go and get some wine now and calm down.
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