Hello I'm new on here but needing to ask advice on this section, if I may....
My partner and I have not been getting on well (to say that would be an understatement)since our youngest DC was born 5 months ago. Things were pretty bad when I was pregnant too.
Nasty things have been said and done on both sides. I feel he is not supporting his family as he is always going to his mums when she is at work- he says on the computer 'working', needs quiet from the DC's - he is self-employed- but if I check he has been playing online football most of the time. This has built up resentment. I have said nasty things to him and him to me.
I know we love each other we just don't expect each other to behave well and nicely and we are both highly on the defensive, it is more like a war than a relationship tbh I do feel like I have been doing most of the trying and he has just withdrawn into his cave - this has been going on for a year. He doesn't want to interact with me anymore, says his life is none of my business, which hurts alot. There are rare glimpses of the love that used to keep us together but they are few and very far between, usually when he is half-asleep he will reach out and hug me, but nothing in awake time We find it hard to be civil, and every day arguments. Also, I don't feel as if he has bonded with the baby at all, although he will look after him if asked, does it in a detached way, no talking, smiling or interaction.
Anyway,I will get to the point for those of you still reading. (Wow- this is theraputic getting things down!) -
Last night, we lasted 5 mins after he came in before arguing.
I had a go at him because his mum told me he has been borrowing money from her to go out with his mates - i don't feel he should be doing this, he should be working instead of playing computer games and if he doesn't have the money he shouldn't be going out.
He lied and said he hadn't been on the games, he had been working (i know he had because his password isn't hard to work out, but i can't tell him this) and that he hadn't borrowed the money (why did his mum say he had? again he doesn't know she told me). I challenged him a few times and he wlaked out of the house, saying he'd be back to get his TV only, that he is leaving me forever, and he actually hates me as a person as I'm "too judgemental and shouldn't be prying into my relationship with my mum".
Later on I phoned him and he said he doesn't want to leave me, he does love me, he just can't deal with the arguments anymore, and he thinks it would probably be best for both of us if we split up, although that's not what he wants, he wants us to stay together but he doesn't think it's possible because of the problems.
Talk about vague. I know he is worn out by the arguing, so am I , but a I right in thinking that he is just trying to let me down gently? (I have been known to call him excessively when he has left in the past ) and that he is basically saying that unless he gets everything how he wants, with no-one challenging him on anything he does wrong, then he is just going to leave? I admit we have both been in the wrong, but i would honestly say him more than me.
I need you ladies to advise me on what to do for the best. I love him and don't want to split but if he doesn't love me anymore etc, then I'd rather know sooner rather than later when I have been given false hope he just up and leaves one day?
I haven't phoned him today because he wants to be left alone, but the limbo-land is hard!
Should I leave him well alone, even if he comes back (I think he will tonight or tomorrow)?
Or should I end things myself to save me the hurt later?
Would it be a good idea to get more of my old life back- Go out with friends more instead of 'old faithful' always in the house, and act happy but distant with him? This would be hard as I have huge resentment for him because he is quite selfish and uninterested in family life or me at the moment , and it hurts me.
He has said when I leave the house he breathes a sigh of relief, and when i come in or he comes in , an uneasy feeling, and tbh i feel the same.
He refuses to go for counselling, he is the 'bury head in sand' type.
Please advise if you can. have you ever managed to turn a situation like this round? Sorry for the horrifically long post!
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BlackFlower123 · 02/02/2010 13:43
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