Me and DP will be celebrating our 2 year anniversary soon. However, I have a problem. Everytime he goes out, I get very panicky. I get very anxious, I shake really badly, and I burst into tears. This happens everytime.
A little background on me is that both my exs cheated on me, abused me, and made me feel terrible. I think this is a reaction that automatically comes up when he goes out as there is a fear deep inside me that he will go out and flirt with girls and cheat on me. I DO NOT believe he would ever do that. I trust him. However, like I said, I think it's just that instinct, that reaction I'm kind of use to getting because of my exs.
And I know it's so unfair to DP. Because he's entitled to go out and enjoy time with his friends, but I ruin it because I'm freaking out at home. He doesn't know I do, I try and hide it. Sometimes when he texts me when he's out, he can sense something is up but I don't want to be a bitch and ruin his night.
But he's out at the moment, I keep crying, my hands are shaking so bad, I feel sick, and I don't want to feel like this!! I don't know if it's jealousy, or because of my past, or what.
Can anyone help?
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whyohwhysigh · 01/12/2009 23:51
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