just want to cry

[wrinklytum]

That it really.

I am tired of being the strong one.the one that keeps it going.DP lt chronic illness.Not his fault.But I amso fecking tired have had bad day.DS IN MINOR TROUBLE AT SCHOOL.DD sn screechy and whingy.Tried tot alkto dp about how he is (HE WATCHES CRAP TV 24/7 EXCEPT KIDS CBEEBIES TIME)HE IS DEPRSSED ON ADS .hE JUST SAYS HE WANTS TOI END IT ALL IF i SAY i AM STRESSED,HAVE NEVER SAID IT TO HIM EXCEPT TONIGHT.I DO IT ALL,HAVE GREATBRESPECT FOR LP.i AM JUST SO SO TIRED OF IT ALL.sORRY CRAP POST .just peed off.

[Manchesvertes]

Aw wrinkly

it sounds really, really stressful, you have a huge amount on your plate and dp just can't give you the support you should be getting. I know it's not his fault he's ill, but it's not yours either and you are allowed to resent it and feel stressed-out and pissed off.

Can you get a break? Do you have friends or family who could have the dcs for a bit?

sorry things are getting on top of you, I know how it feels xx

[TheArmadillo]

you are under a lot pressure and sound like you are doing all the emotional supportive stuff for him and getting nothing back.

For him to say he will end it all if you mention you are stressed is incrediably manipulative even if he is depressed.

How much support do you get outside of the home if you aren't getting it from your dp?

[isittooearlyforgin]

sorry you are feeling sad, when you keep it together most of the time, sometimes it just needs to come out and then it just doesn't seem to stop. no advice or help but just to say for you

[wrinklytum]

Tahnks.Just having a ba day.ususlly a coper.dd ben waking at silly o clock.Just startyed back on nights.scared of buggering up.dp spend all time watching tv,no interaction with dc,he just isnt with us,blae meds.I made mstake of tackling it,he is deprssed,understandable,ds just did silly thing atschool,nowt mjrbutdid need disipline.Just feel quiter shitey atm bad day.non coping day.Wll be beter tommorwo.

[wrinklytum]

thanks.Wprries me as need to be on ball at work.Hard with dp as he has so takem on sick rolre.Have studied all this shite but reality much hardeer.