OK, this is probably going to sound weird and I can't get it straight in my own head even.
I have a 6yo dd. Love her to bits especilly now she's at an age where she's reasonable. I loved spending time with her when she was a baby. But I have to admit that between the ages of 18months and 5 I maybe was not that happiest mummy in the world and didn't really enjoy spending time with her. Though I really hope and pray I never showed that, I did all the mum and toddler things with a smile on my face. But I found her very hard work, she had awful tantrums and I was at the end of my tether.
Me and DH get on well and he is a good dad, but he tends to do his own things at weekends. Leaves me and dd to do stuff and if we go out for the day he rarely comes with us saying he has work to do instead. So I do feel that I don't get a lot of adult company apart from at work. We decided that we did not want more kids.
But I'm 31 now and suddenly begging to feel broody. Am worrying about what I will do with myself when dd is 12 and off with her mates at weekends and not with me. But thats a stupid reason to want another child isn't it.
I love been able to sleep all night now and would hate sleepless nights again. But a cute, giggly baby would be nice. But what when they grow up to be a monster toddler?
I'm looking forward to having more time to read books, have time for me. But I'm panicing about been lonely as well.
I would be mad to have kids with such a big age gap and go back and start all over again. Going back to work would be difficult as I work shifts and childcare would be a nightmare. Have just started a new career which I'm excited about. We would need an extension and money would be tight if we had another.
Haven't even mentioned this to hubby. Oh and I've been sterilised. Am I bonkers? Should I just forget this. What if I get to 40 and its too late and I'm full of regret. But what if I have a baby and hate being a mum again.
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Feeling broody but don't want another baby.
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StripeyBroomstickSpottyWand · 12/07/2007 12:48
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