I don't know what the hell is wrong with me at the moment. I have been divorced for 4/5 years. I initiated the divorce. Exh a decent bloke but just couldn't get his priorities right and was emotionally very distant and unloving. He has gone on to get a new girlfriend and is very happy.
I had a partner after the divorce for around 18 months who turned out to be a gambling addict and sucked money out of me like you can't believe whilst telling me how much he loved me etc. It took me a long time to figure it out - it may sound odd but I'm a busy woman. I work full time with a long hour long commute job so I'm not around a lot so it was easy to hide the lies.
I have been single now for 2 years and I would like to have a new boyfriend now or at least explore the opportunity. There is someone who is interested in me - really nice bloke, honourable, upstanding, not a gambling addict :), I've actually known him for years and was really taken aback when he said he liked me.
BUT I do think I am scarred from my previous experiences. I have a big thing about getting hurt and being let down early on.
Last night we were meant to meet at a party and he didn't turn up till much later though he did keep me informed the whole night as to what was going on BUT I was really looking forward to seeing him and was hugely disappointed he didn't come when I thought he would (it started at 8, he didn't turn up till 11 and I'd gone by 10). I totally lost my cool - like completely over the top. It is SO unlike me. He was horrified 'I don't need shit like this in my life' and 'bloody hell so aggressive' etc. and I suspect may walk away.
If I think about it, I'm just paranoid about being let down and getting hurt. He did also say to me that we fucked up by not agreeing a time to meet in advance so my expectations were different to his. BUT I do think he will have MAJOR doubts about me and him now.
What the fuck am I doing?! Has anyone else been through this?
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I'm driving men away and sabotaging good things and just can't stop it
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Zebra999 · 23/10/2016 16:26
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