Just to let you know. I'm happy now

[HoppingForward]

Some might have read my threads here this year, I've had to name change from DragonsCanHop to this one probably due to my own paranoid mind.

It's been 9 really, really fucking hard weeks but I'm happy. I've turned a corner and although the DC haven't caught up with me yet (obv since they are DC) I'm feeling so much stronger in looking at it all and thinking, yes it is sad I picked the wrong one - I didn't though, because we have our DC. I can forgive him for who he is, I wish him well and hope he can find happiness and build a relationship with his DC.

But.

I know our DC love me, they know I love them, I'm setting clear boundaries and they are sticking to them, work have been amazing and since opening up to trusted people I have found laughter and smiles and I know they feel proud that I'm doing it on my own, my friends are there when needed and I have the time to be there for them.

Things feel great, positive and I just wanted to share that. It's not been easy, it won't be roses but I'm thinking about me and my own feelings and it's working.

It can be done, it's not easy but when you find the strength and let others help you, you can escape from the madness of being second/third/forth best.

[mumndad37]

You are absolutely amazing. Keep going.

[HoppingForward]

Thank you.

I never imagined I would be here, it all felt so bogged down and foggy but I just posted to say it doesn't have to stay that way, clarity and thinking about yourself first really does help me.

[Catzpyjamas]

HoppingForward, I remember your threads and I'm glad to hear you're getting there

[PPie10]

I followed your other thread and yet again I am amazed at the strong, dignified and brave woman you are. Your dds will be so proud of you for standing up and being a great role model to them. I Wish your family the best op

[HoppingForward]

I don't feel like I'm any of those things PPie but let's hope my DC feel it.

It's a bizarre feeling, I've let go of what he was/did and I'm Focusing just on me for now, I smile and laugh more than I ever did.

I've kept up with email/text with him for the DC and although 1/3 want contact I can see that is he issue not mine.

[HoppingForward]

House all to myself tonight, first time in 15 years. DD3 has gone for her 1st to see if he can behave night at dads and DD1 & 2 with friends for the evening.

I imagined this evening would crush me but I'm genuinely pleased for them all.

Wine and trashy tv night for me and a real lie in in the morning

[ALaughAMinute]

I didn't read your previous threads but I'm glad things have worked out well for you. Stay strong.

[BigHairySpider]

This is a great update - I'm so pleased for you. All the best

[AtTheEndofTheRoad]

Well done, I followed your other post and I'm so happy to hear this!

[HoppingForward]

It's not a stealth boast.

I honestly felt like I was going mad, he had me second guessing myself all the time and I WAS an unhappy person, just existing because I couldn't see how I could ever do it on my own.

I'm hoping someone reads this and sees some hope, I genuinely didn't have the confidence or strength to make the change. But it was so so worth it.

[RoomForASmallOne]

Great update.
So pleased for you

[Yoksha]

You've just made my Saturday even brighter. You go girl.

[shoeaddict83]

Just found this hopping after following all your other threads, im so pleased things are working out for you! Youve been amazing through all this.
How is star is she still with you?