My sister and me have always been treated "differently" from our cousins by our family (uncles, aunts and our parents themselves). My cousins are 33, 37 and 40, my sister 26 and me 33.
A simple example of conversation when I was around 15:
Father: torontonian came back at 10.05 last night, that is 5 minutes late so she is grounded for 5 weekends, withouth going out.
General look of disaproval from all my family, how do I dare!?
15 minutes later my aunt talking happily (and proudly) about my cousin coming home at 2am the same night (cousin who is my age).
Smiles from everybody, happy that she had a good time.
A big one happened when I spent a year abroad and all my aunts and the cousin who is my age came to visit with my mum. Trip planned for them, not to really see me, dont be fooled. We visited four different cities in 10 days. In one of this, somehow my cousin couldnt get into the subway because the doors closed too fast. Everybody panicked. I calmed them down saying we would get out in the next stop and I was sure she would arrive in the next train. They were almost crying, but my cousin was "lost" for 5 minutes. We were 26 years at the time.
Now, traveling overnight, we needed to switch trains around 4am.When we left our train, the station was desert. No people, no signs... so as I was the one "speaking" the local language (not really) I offered to go inside the station to ask (there was lots of tracks, station was far away. I left my suitcase, bag, etc with them and run to the station. When I came back, they were gone. I called them and they were in the train, that came while I was away. I asked my mother how could it be that they left without me and the answer was that "the train came". I couldnt believe it. I asked them to stop in the next station and I would rush there and try to board the train. But they said that they didnt want to the leave the train if I was not on time since next was not coming in another 8 hours. There I was, 4am in the middle of nowhere, snowing, without my wallet or the train ticket and they asked me to take a taxi to my final destination (400km away). So what were my options? Tried to talk with a taxi driver, convince him to drive me 400 km in a lamguage I didnt speak... and started calling my friends at the residence to borrow money to pay for the taxi when I arrived. But they were all obviously sleeping. Luckily enough their train arrived at around the same time as I did so I went directly there and paid for the ride (phew). But that was not all. We were suppssed to leave that morning for the capital city, stay overnight and then their flight was leaving in the am. After the awful night I said that I would sleep in and meet them in the other city in the afternoon. My mother left crying and next thing i know is my aunt comes yelling at me that I am selfish and treat my mom badly for not going with them. There is a bit more, after I went to meet them kn the afternoon and my mother didnt let me enter the hotel room in case I woke my aunt up )I had booked a room for me and my mum but they decided that she was sleeping with my mom). I ended up sitting in the hall until they left for the airport. And just then i could enter to sleep some.
We have a family whatsapp group. My mother posted photos of my children and then read the comments to me. So I asked to be added. All aunts, uncles, cousins were there. Except my sister and me. Now, every birthday, everybody will say happy birthday. Today, it was mine. One of my uncles said happy birthday. Then my cousing changed the subject and nobody else said happy birthday to me (so it is not aatter that they forgot, they decided to ignore).
I am not hurt because I dont give a shit about them after all these years but yet I feel humiliated. I feel that I shouldnt let them do that to my fave amd leave the group. Now i wonder how much waves that would cause.
Do you think I am over sensitive? Reading too much? Given the train episode, is this something that happens in the best families? Were they just practical and I was a jerk for not going early with them?
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