NC for this. Married 25 years, he's a good man in many ways. Good father, hard working, incredibly loyal and definitely faithful, but.... There's always a bloody but isn't there? We have not had sex for 10 years, for a number of reasons. We have both had medical problems that made it impossible. Mine are now resolved and his are semi resolved. He has been on tablets for cholesterol and blood pressure which has had an impact but he is now off the tablets. Over the years we have talked about the lack of a sex life and he says he misses it (as do I). He says that he wants to but can't, I have tried to establish if he really can't or if its a lack of confidence after so long but he won't go into any specifics. Most of the time I can cope but recently (and I don't know if its related to being on HRT in the last 6 months ora mid life crisis but its really getting me down. There is an age gap (he is 64 and I am 46) which probably doesn't help. He is very tactile and kisses and cuddles me but it never goes any further. We were watching tv the other night and normally we cuddle up on the sofa (and I fall asleep) because I have to get up early for work I suggested we just went and had a cuddle in bed, his response was he wasn't ready for bed but if that was what I wanted he would come up and then get back up again. So cue me falling asleep on the sofa and waking up at 1am and getting up at 6am. At least if we had gone to bed I would have slept through. I should mention as he works nights we have separate rooms. I don't know why I am posting really, I have so many thoughts going around in my head. I don't think he realises how much it bothers me, I want to feel that my husband lusts after me - I know he loves me but when that is not shown physically its soul destroying. Its not the sex or lack of it, I guess its the feeling that your partner desires you that is missing and I guess because I am getting older I need that reassurance that he still finds me attractive. We went to a gathering recently and I met some of his friends from years back and a couple of them commented on how lucky he was to have me and it just didn't seem to register. I have told him most 64 year olds would be really flattered that a woman nearly 20 years younger was attracted to them and he just says I know. So its long, sorry about that - I just wanted to get it off my chest. Don't even know why but today I just feel really sad and taken for granted. Its like I just have to put up with it. I understand its difficult and stressful for him, but its like he has a problem and I am just expected to live with it with no acknowledgement of how it makes me feel. Thanks for reading if you managed to stay awake this far.
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peanutnutter · 28/05/2015 07:26
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