Hello,
My DH and I have been together for 8 years, married for 5. We have a beautiful 18 month old DS. I am a SAHM and gave up my career to raise DS, we also recently bought a house in a new area so we have little support from family and don't really know anyone. Life is hard.
DH works full time, long hours. He is also an alcoholic. When we first met we both enjoyed a party lifestyle but I no longer drink (babies + hangovers don't mix). Ever since finding out I was pregnant he started drinking heavily and alone. He'd drink every night and be permanently hungover. We had several HUGE rows about this and several times I gave him an ultimatum but never followed through (stupid!)
A few days ago the drinking came to a head. He stayed up all night drinking and was wasted when I got up at 5.30 - he had to got to work and was slurring his words. I discovered that he'd driven drunk to the shop to get more alcohol. He'd also been verbally abusive to my family members via text. I hit the fucking roof.
My family were urging me to leave him. Long story short I wrote him a letter saying it was the alcohol or us (I bloody mean it this time). Now he's attending AA, taking an antidepressant and has been sober for about a week.
I'm pleased that he is making an effort but I'm not sure that it is enough for me. I feel like our relationship is failing. Our sex life is crap non-existent, in the evenings we avoid each other and go to bed at separate times. We frequently argue and bicker. It's miserable. I feel like I'm wasting my life. He sucks all the joy and passion out of me.
I know I need to be supportive but I feel like his bloody mother. I don't get anything from this relationship and I feel like he hates my guts. He's always saying I'm horrible and I can't stop nagging him.
I feel trapped in this house. I don't earn any money, money is tight and although I have access to money his earnings go into his account, we don't have a joint account. The mortgage is in his name. Essentially I have nothing and this puts me in a very difficult position.
I'm at a crossroads and I don't know what to do. Has anyone ever been in my situation and found it got better over time? There's got to be more to life than this....
Thank you for reading this far.
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CaptainZoot · 28/04/2015 09:16
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