My exdp left 18 months ago but I can't seem to stop feeling so sad about it.
We have a young ds together so we still see each other on a very regular basis which doesn't really help.
I am meant to be going on a date on Friday but he is being a bit too full on in his messages and the thought of having to be with someone else is a bit too much for me.
I realise that I was to blame for him leaving as his emotional affair was his reaction to how I was to him. I really didn't appreciate what I had with him and even my parents have admitted that they feel that it was my fault.
I feel so sad for ds as well because although he is too young to understand, I ultimately made his dad leave. I can't bear it when he cries for him.
I don't know what to do anymore and I have nobody to speak to in rl who would understand how I feel as I did have the perfect life and other people could see that but I couldn't.
I dread the day he meets someone else because they are going to be so lucky to have him and I will still be alone.
He is coming for Christmas and I struggled with it last year and I don't feel anymore able to deal with it this year either but he wants to be here to see ds.
I don't know what this post will achieve but I am just so sad
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gingerbreadshoes · 25/11/2014 22:22
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