Hi all,
I don't have any children, but came on here as a friend who has recommended it as a place to get sound advice. Trying not to make this a "woe is me" story and to keep it short.
As background to school, I was pretty much liked by everyone, but not popular - one of the general population with nothing offensive about me, so no reason to be disliked, but nothing to make me stand out and be one of the in crowd.
I grew breasts fairly early on – measured by M&S as a C cup when I was 13, so probably was more like an E cup. As you can imagine, this didn’t go unnoticed by the boys at school. Mine was a fairly medium sized school, about 60% boys/40% girls.
I spent the last five years of school (up to the end of A levels) being referred to as “Twin Peaks” or “Himalayas” or other alternative names by probably about a third of the boys in my year – and some classes it was all of them. The girls in the older years made me feel that this was a desirable thing to have happen to me. None of the teachers said anything about it or appeared to notice at all, and when I finally snapped at one of the boys to fuck off and leave me alone, the teacher told me off.
I never told my parents about it, mainly because at the time it was so universal that it seemed normal, and no one paid any attention to it at all. It also seemed like such a small thing – they didn’t do anything physical, it was just name calling. It’s only really been as an adult (I’m in my mid twenties) that I started to think that it was appalling behaviour, and that the teachers had no business ignoring it.
The reason I’m posting is that if I assess my view of men now, I really think it is coloured by those years at school. The relationships I grew up with (ie seeing Mum and Dad) and see now are, in my opinion, healthy ones, but I’m always distrustful of any man who asks me on a date, and I think I therefore sabotage any chance of a long term relationship.
Rationally, I know the majority of men are kind and decent, but I can’t seem to really accept that, and I don’t know what the hell to do.
Sorry, a bit of a vent for me here.
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CaptainMelody · 15/09/2014 16:29
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