I think I am pretty crap at relationships to be honest.
I've been in a relationship for fourteen months. Engaged for three months. I have four children and am about to start work full time. I am about to turn 30, my partner is 40.
In the early days things were very intense. We got together and he began staying over at mine a month or so later. He was staying pretty much every night except if we had a row where he would
stay with his mum.
We did row about once a month for the first six months mostly when drunk together. However things have settled down and the remainder of the relationship so far has been great.
Recently my dp has become depressed. He says this is due to pressure and stress at work and some long term issues he has had within his family. He now stays up at his more and more as he wants to try to get himself back in the gym etc. I've been fine with this but recently I've been evaluating our relationship and some things are troubling me.
My children adore him. Yet we have never done anything together, all of us. When I get a new place my dp says he wants to move in. I don't see that happening as he seems to be spending more and more time away from me and I'm not sure I'm happy to have him move in with no real idea about how he would be with my children on a regular close contact basis.
Recently I've been feeling the relationship is a bit hopeless. I know what I want. I want a quiet drama free life as mine has been pretty horrendous so far. I want to go to work each day, pick up my children, come home, cook a nice dinner, help them with homework, then when they are in bed, cuddle up with someone and watch TV or chat with. I want someone who comes home to me each night. That's not to say I don't want any alone time or think he shouldn't have any, I know that's really unhealthy. I just want a but of stability, security and contentness. Is that bad or wrong?
With my dp being depressed, sex is non existent which is not the be all and end all but coupled with the fact I am not seeing him very much and so there is little affection too, I'm feeling a bit lonely I guess.
I am supportive with his depression and don't add to his stress by saying any of this. I love him very much and almost feel useless because he is proffering to deal with it away from me and I can't seem to do anything to help him.
I'm not sure what I want from this post. I guess I'm just confused.
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NacMacFeeglie · 29/08/2014 09:51
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