H and I have a pretty awful relationship at the moment, its been deteriorating for the past 8/9 months (have posted about it before ad nauseam). Main issues are, in no particular order: his drinking (moderate to heavy but every night), the fact he won't plan to do anything with DD and I at weekends, his social life revolves around a particular pub, the way he speaks to me which is frequently offhand and occasionally rude.
Only thing that is stopping me leaving is DD. He has been told in no uncertain terms that several things are dealbreakers for me (the drinking, the being out on both weekend nights without any thought for me and DD and the refusal to do anything at weekends with us in particular.) But because we have a DD together, I'm falling into that typical spineless trap of not being able to walk away until I'm 100% sure every avenue to improve things has been explored. I'm sending myself mad with inertia.
Anyway
He has made a recent attempt to get back into my good books after we recently agreed to separate (for at least the third time since Christmas), he has cut down drinking, promised to spend more time with DD and I and things tentatively had seemed better. But we still haven't really addressed the problems in our marriage and he is showing no signs of moving out. I felt we had sort of been drifting for a few weeks without resolution.
He came back last night after a very long shift at work and I said to him, basically "so, what's going on? where are we? we need to talk properly".
Admittedly, he was absolutely cream crackered so my moment wasn't perfect. But his response was, rather than talking about the big issues in our marriage, to berate me for not having a meal ready for him when he finishes work (in fairness, this is something he generally does for me when he can so not just back to the 1950s, although I do work full time so its not that easy). After we discussed this the next topic on the agenda was why its taking me so long to pass my driving test (he knows why its taking me a long time -- its because I work full time and don't get home until 7.30pm so its very difficult for me to schedule lessons in the week. By the way he doesn't have a license either), and why I don't invite more people round to the house for social events and whether this means I am ashamed of him (he never invites anyone).
It was just bizarre... I felt like he was just randomly plucking perceived shortcomings out of the ether to have a go at me about, none of which were in the scheme of things terribly important and none of which were remotely relevant to our current marriage problems. And none of which he has ever raised before in this type of discussion.
He does this quite a lot when we are supposed to be having serious conversations: will avoid talking about the issue in hand and go off on a tangent about something irrelevant and usually pretty trivial that he hasn't previously mentioned, where I invariably come out as the villain of the piece.
Is this part of an abuser's toolkit? or is it just low-level grumbling. A lot of this stuff about abusive behaviour is stuff I have read about for the first time on MN and I am in a learning process....
I have been really reluctant to knock this on the head until I know all possible opportunities to turn it around have been exhausted because we have a DD who adores him. But I am just exasperated by this.
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Is this what gaslighting is? And how do I get past it? (sorry, very long)
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newnamesamegame · 28/07/2014 08:27
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