Pregnant and stupid :/

[PregnantPregnantAndstupid]

Good evening, I need some advice or maybe just flaming to put me straight. A bit of a background: in a relationship for 15 years, 1 child, we had many rough moments, especially after our daughter was born. He was never there, when he was - it was hell. Lots of arguments and used to cry myself to sleep, constantly exhausted and alone with a baby. I'm not saying I'm perfect - far from it. He has done many bad things to me but I'm the one who had an affair. It lasted on and off for 2 years. We knew each other before and fell in love instantly. At the beginning it was a fairytale, I felt like I found the most wonderful man ever!
But then after few months he started to back away... He was scared that he will ruin my family, that he hasn't got much money, he was worried about my dd, me, even my partner. I didn't know how to make it work but I was in love and just wanted to see him, be near him... The whole thing lasted for 2 years on/off with me in emotional hell.
He has got 'ex wife' he lives with and 4 sons.
He left me but problem is that I'm pregnant :(

I love him, but we cant be together.
I don't love my partner any more but my daughter loves her daddy now and I don't know how to explain and support on my own 2 children with everybody against me. I am an idiot. I know.

[CogitoErgoSometimes]

If your relationship is 'hell' then this is your cue to end the relationship. It's probably what you should have done originally rather than compensate for lack of affection with someone else, but now's not the time for reproach. All children love their parents whether they are saints or arseholes. With some consideration and patience you can two great homes for DD instead of one unhappy one.

There is support available for you if you ask for it. Accommodation, finance, and other practical help is out there. People may be against you but that's just a chance you take when you choose to be different.

Good luck