Last night DP texted to say he was going out with new work colleagues (3 days into new job, eh?...) I said fine as I was salsa dancing with my female friend on wednesday.
There is a bit of history here. In the past whenever he's out 'with colleagues' he usually stops responding to my texts around 11pm (and I normally text once or twice as it starts getting late to say be careful getting home etc. so not jealous texts or controlling texts). He then instead having 'a quick drink' tends to rock up at home at silly hours (e.g. 4am when he needs to get up at 6.30 to go to work). There have been incidents where he has taken a day off the following day because he was too tired/hangover to go.
Last night was the same, after 11pm he wasn't responding, came back around 3.30am. I took the IPad in the morning to check the history as I know he watches porn and I am sort of ok about it as I always thought it to be of non interactive nature, I thought he watches clips that's all. I was wrong. He was still logged onto MassiveCams, that's I gather a bit like AdultWork, you can pay for stuff etc. There were some purchases made in his account.
Quick relationship issues summary - we don't have sex as he is not interested, he was sexually abused as a teen and claims to have gotten into high porn usage because of that. It's safer etc, bla bla.
Todays discovery tells me however he is into interactive porn. That's a whole different game I feel. While I am ok with him watching clips and videos I feel cheated on now I know he was using an interactive site and for god knows how long.
So I clung onto IPod and said it was staying with me because of what I found and I wanted to see what's more in the history. He then insisted he needed it for work, he supposedly had to deliver something today and thus absolutely needed the IPos. Our son was there so in the end I gave it to him.
I have taken annual leave from work as I feel absolutely sick about it. I told him that it was either him leaving IPad with me or relationship was over. He took the IPod. Where do I go from here?...
I need to leave him, it's been on my mind for the last 3.5 years (since DS was born). I need to do it. I have threatened so many times before. I did it this morning, I said in the heat of a row 'lets split up' and he just replied angrily 'lets do it, you have always hated me anyways'. I WANT to do it.
We own a house together. We have 1 DS. I am part of his limited company. I have resigned today and plan to inform the accountant on monday. I am a bit startled and not sure where to start. But I know I need to do it, in fact I regret i didn't do it when DS was a baby. Could you please hold my hand? Or slap me and tell me Im overreacting?..--
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TrippleBerryFairy · 01/03/2013 17:42
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