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Was I wrong and what do I do now. I can't think straight(83 Posts)
I've been with dp for 9 years we have dd 4( nearly 5)
I have a history of abusive partners but dp has never been anything but safe
He had a very tough time when dd was born, I've posted about it before but after 2 very bad years I thought we were through it and for the last 2 years he had been a good dad
Over the weekend dd didn't want to get dressed ( back ground she had the night before been give a new set if pjs they where pink with hearts a hood and built in feet plus they where über soft) anyway I had been explaining to dd that if she didn't get changed she couldn't go out to the park
Dp came into the room listened for 5 secs and lost the plot he got down on her face a bodily screamed at her for maybe 2 mins ie as long as it took me to standup and walk over to them. I said stop you are frightening her ( he was frightening me) and tried to get between them and dp push me back and screamed in my face to back him up or go away. He then picked dd up and ran up stairs with her and continued to scream at her and then I heard him slap her
I went up stairs and managed to convince do to let me get dd dressed he wondered about shocking socks on her ect and then went down stairs and didn't speak to me or dd and we left 30 min later after I had calm dd down
Now later on dp and I had a chat and I told him I was reconsidering our relationship and he told me I was over reacting and that what he did was my fault
Dp did not have a good childhood
But I don't know what I think or feel at the moment I feel panicky if I have to leave dd and dp alone together
He was completely 100% in the wrong with no qualifications whatsoever. There is absolutely no mitigating factor in the slapping of a four-year-old. Good for you. Read up on abuse, your rights etc. slowly, as you feel able, and in the meantime just keep him out. Well done, keep it up, you can do it.
"9 years is good going for not losing his temper"??????? So when he did, he was entitled to?
It's been a hard year, so he's allowed to behave like that? My mum and my little brother died 6 weeks apart, less than 6 months after my friend died. That was a hard year too. I didn't go around screaming at children and slapping them though. As far as I can tell, his hard year was a hard year for you too. Did you scream at children and slap them?
No, of course you didn't. You're not an abusive person.
Whereas he is a FuckWit of the First Order. And an abuser.
Your dd will be fine. She is 4 and will soon get over your FW's departure.
In short, yes you are doing the right thing!
My word you moved fast, excellent. I know it isn't easy and of course, to save face this guy will blame everyone but himself. Putting distance between you is a good start. He may alternate between anger or resentment, to wheedling or smooth talking.
Your DD is only young, she'll know when there's an atmosphere and feel insecure if grown ups pack and leave BUT you're there, you are her rock. Keep her occupied try not to let her see you anxious or stressed. Cuddle and reassure her. Fake it 'til you make it.
Don't waste time dwelling on anything he said in temper. Look forward, get support.
You have definitely done the right thing.
He says I've been very irritable this year and it's made him angry
Even if that is true, who gives him the right to take it on a 4 year old girl?
And when you see your DD upset that daddy is gone, remember how upset she was when he took her upstairs, slapped her and screamed at her. Which is worse?
You may want to reassure her that he didn't leave because of her. That's very important. It may be why she's upset, not that he is away per se.
That you have sent him away because he is too angry and you were scared of him, for example.
For your sake and your DD's I hope you do not allow him back.
If you do, he'll feel he can get away with such behaviour.
And if you marry him, you are consenting to these actions.
You've done the right thing - you know you have. Well done. That must have taken such strength and bravery. When you marry, you want it to be to someone who you know loves you (and your children), that you feel safe with, cherished by and respected by. It doesn't sound as though your partner is that person. Nothing he says can excuse his behaviour - and no-one is to blame but him.
You are doing everything you can to protect yourself and your daughter. There are people here who have much more wisdom and advice to offer than i can, but since I read your post I've been worrying about you and your DD. Please, stay strong and keep reaching out for help. You and your daughter deserve to feel safe and secure.
You have done the right thing. You know you have, he's just been working on you long enough to make you doubt yourself.
His parting shot shows what an utter piece of shit he is. He made sure to make you doubt yourself so you wouldn't experience the joy and freedom of being away from him. Of not living in fear that your dd will step out of line and get slapped around again.
This is not a good man mummy. Well done for having him leave. Please make it longer than a few days!
oh jut read that you have sent him away THANK GOD! he is a danger to your daughter - he will hurt her, physically and emotionally - you are so so brave, please call womens aid who will be able to give you rl advice and support. We are all here for you too - so so brave, a fantasic mum This man isnt worth the shit off your shoe
oh god, your OP has made me feel ill - please tell me you are getting away from this cunt of a man
Glad to hear he has gone op. I hope you will be able to take this chance to calm your thoughts and start to clear your mind of the blame he is pushing on you.
Up-thread you said I want dd to be safe and happy more than anything in the world. That is a very good thing to focus on to help you be strong. Your dd will not be safe around him: he is becoming more and more angry and resentful and unstable and the last incident shows he has no boundaries to directing his anger at her in a violent way. Your dd will not be happy growing up with an angry unstable father and a fearful, confused mother.
You have had big challenges before and you have dealt with them. Every day your life as an independent woman and loving mother is testament to your strength of character. It's very sad that your p has been messed up by his childhood but only he can make a difference in his life - you can't do it for him, no one can while he refuses to accept responsibility, and if you try he will ruin your life.
And I guess DD won't just be upset that Daddy has gone on holiday. She could be upset about him shouting at and smacking her the other day. Upset because she sees you are. Upset because of an air of uncertainty around her. Wondering why you didn't all go "on holiday" together ? Lots to be upset and confused about just now for a 4 year old.
So, change can be hard but it can definitely be for the best. Be strong, especially for DD.
You both deserve a better future x
He hit your child op what is there to be confused about. If you wont accept soneone hitting you why accept it for your child. Even a child who is badly abused will miss their abusive parent, because they dont know any different, so if you decide to stay admit it is for you and not fot her.
Yes yes yes you have done the right thing - it's not you, it's him.
Please have a look at the 'emotional abuse' thread - the many brave ladies there will help you with all this confusion.
The confusion you are feeling right now is a result of being emotionally abused for so long - that's what it does.
He is blaming you because that is what works for him.
Sorry all it's been a very bad day here and I've not been able to get on line
I phone Dp best friend and explained everything to him
He called Dp today and had a long talk
After which Dp and I had a big row and I told him I needed some space to think. He is going to go and stay with his best mat for a few day to give me some time to think and hopefully he will do the same
I have no idea how I feel at the moment
Dd seems very upset at daddy going on holiday
I'm still very confused Dp basically blames me for our problems which is hard to take and I don't know if he is right? He says I've been very irritable this year and it's made him angry
I will have a look at that thread lemon but I'm not sure I'm up to it at the moment
Feel very shaky and I'm doubting myself massively
Please tell me if I have done the right thing?
Sorry for what you are going through mummy
The mind boggling inability to think straight is familiar to lots of us. Come over to This Thread and you will read about Spaghetti Head Mess which is what we call it. Many of the posters there are in your situation and many more have already got away from an abusive partner and are seeing the benefits for them and their DC.
No rush, take time to think it through. But that will be easier with some time apart from him so you can process what happened.
Your partner hated your daughter for the first two years of her life
He screamed at her and assaulted her at the age of 4
This situation will only get worse and I think you know that
You need to get out of this relationship - for your daughter's sake
Ok, so a grown adult slaps a 4 year old and cannot guarantee that it cannot happen again.
So, what's next? What happens when the slap doesn't work? A kick, a punch, a strap maybe, maybe in a few years something more degrading will be used?
It may, it may not but the point is that you don't know and can't know.
Whichever way you look at this it WILL only get worse.
You know what you must do, I only hope you don't delay.
Mummy how are you today?
Holy shit. I gasped when I got to the part about the slap. The fact that he lifted her and ran away, knowing you would not be able to catch up, so that he could hit her -- I really think that means he knew, even in the moment, how very very wrong that was.
Can you try to put the wedding right out of your mind for a bit? Just put it aside so you can do what you need to do. Which, I agree, is get him out. I understand your getting confused about what to do when he's around, it's perfectly normal to be stressed and feel torn, but can we help you find a counselor to help you stay centered? Are you in the US?
You sound very strong. You know you'll be okay on your own. And you know you can't give him another chance to do that. And you know he will.
I'm very sorry.
He's been hitting objects. Now he's hitting dd (whom he acts like he hates). He pushed you and screamed at you.
Send him back to UK. Worry about contact later. Most abusers tend to forget about children of past relationships once they've moved on to the new gf, got other children to terrorise.
Have you reported him? I do think you should, if only to protect yourself and dd in the event he does something else.
You get confused when you speak to him because abusers are masters of manipulation. He will twist and turn everything you say until you're tied up in knots.
He doesn't like MN because you are being exposed to outside influences here. Logical, experienced people over whom he has no control are looking at the situation and telling you that lines are being crossed.
Abusers rely on isolation to continue their abuse. You start listening to people saying it's wrong and all of a sudden his ties loosen up a little.
There is NO way of fixing this while he's around. There just isn't. You can't go to counselling together because abusers thrive in couples therapy as it's just another power tool for them.
You are facing a huge decision and it's not easy but you deserve better and so does your dd. You've been here before. You know all of this. You just need to take the final step.
Tell him to leave. If he can't even understand how messed up he is then there's no hope of improvement.
You are in a strong position - you will be able to cope financially, you already do all the care of your dd so don't need him for that and once he's out he won't even be in the same country so will have minimal impact on your life with your dd.
Ask yourself a basic question .... do you really want to marry this man after all that has happened. If not, then don't !
Maybe it's good in some ways that you have a wedding on the near horizon ...
it could help you to make the difficult choice you need to make ?
If you ask him to leave how do you think that will go ?
Leaving, in this case, it's not a bad decision.
At worst, you give it some time to figure it out and for stillP to turn himself around.
At best, you get rid of a very dangerous person.
But, in the event that all decisions are bad, what do you think is the worst outcome:
a) leaving with DD, then exP turns around into a beautiful person and marries someone else (or you decide to get back together)
b) staying with DD, marrying DP, who proceeds to beat or scare DD regularly, and possibly you too. You then decide to leave but have to go through difficult divorce. (this is the best outcome if you decide to stay, BTW, as you may never leave...)
I know the bad outcome I'd prefer.
Chances of a) happening: 1%
Chances of b) happening: 90%
So he's not a fan of MN? there's a surprise. You need to stand up for your DD and yourself. A wedding in 3 weeks, a marriage of how long? How easily could you separate DD from her father once you are married? It is hard and maybe the end of your dream of a life with this man but right now as things stand he is going to raise his voice (or later fist) every time you or DD cross a line. You will find yourself adjusting behaviour or shushing her so as not to aggravate him. That is not engendering respect in children, it is teaching them "Do this OR ELSE".
He had a very tough time when dd was born and it was no picnic for you, either. She isn't yet 5 so for a large part of her life he's been more of a hindrance than help.
Dp did not have a good childhood Shame on him for re-visiting that upon your DD.
Adults often feel under pressure or bowed down with stress, it does not excuse acting in an aggressive or inimidating fashion. Generally if people manage not to blow their top at other adults, friends or colleagues, there is no reason why they can't exercise control at home.
Please get some good sound legal advice.
His behaviour has been escalating. Now he's terrified a tiny little girl (big man, huh?) and slapped her.
Please kick him out.
He's brought it all on himself, and should no longer take up space in your regard.
At least postpone the wedding?
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