My mum (and at times my dad but he wasn't as bad) was very unkind to me emotionally during my childhood and was always in a bad mood, up and down like a yoyo and tried to make me believe I was horrible and awful.
I'm now in my mid thirties. I have had counselling and feel a lot better about myself and know it's not me with the problem, but my mum. She does, however, still get in bad moods a lot. Sometimes she will be fine, other times she will be all moody and passive aggressive when I haven't done anything wrong.
Earlier this week she asked if she could have my DCs for a day so I could finish getting sorted for Christmas. I was happy for her to have them as obviously it's a hectic time of year. She came and collected them (she insisted) and when I went to pick them up she was in a bad mood and not talking to me, neither was my dad really. They kept talking to the children but more or less ignored me. My mum then put a drink on the dining table and it went all over my dad's laptop and he really went off on one. I said "Oh I'm sure it will be fine if we wipe it, we've had a few drinks spilt on ours but it should be ok" and he went off on one at me, basically blaming me for it!! (I used to get blamed for everything as a child). So I said to the kids "Well, I think we'd better go home now kids", and off we went. I didn't storm off but I made it clear we were going because of the outburst.
We go to my parents for Xmas lunch every year; we always go at midday and dinner is at 1 or 2ish. Mum is insistent that we go and gets upset if I say we will have Xmas at home, so we always go. Anyway, we were all on for this year, and she suddenly announced yesterday that we're not to go round earlier than 4.30pm and she'll cook for then or later. I'd done all the food shopping for us for Xmas but went out today and got some extras, but it seems like my mum is being a matryr, not wanting us there but soldiering on. To be honest I would rather have had Xmas at home this year anyway but mum insisted we go there, so now we will have the children excited all day about going to nanny and grandad's house, and wondering why we can't go, and also I prefer to have Christmas dinner at lunchtime then relax, which is what we have always done in previous years (I do help prepare the dinner btw).
I just don't want to go now, I don't feel like we are particularly welcome, and I can't relax there as my parents are uptight, but obviously we will look the bad guys if we turn round now and say we can't go/don't want to go.
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I really don't want to go there for Xmas
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HexagonalQueenOfTheSummer · 24/12/2011 15:28
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