A few of you may have seen my posts about abusive 'h'. The good news is he moved out yesterday for a 'trial' separation - at least 30 weeks while he completes a domestic violence perpetrator course so today was Day 1.
I have cried a lot more than I expected. I thought I would be just relieved. But I can't get over the anger I have about the waste of time and effort I put into the relationship and feel totally let down by it all, him and somehow feel like I don't know myself at all - I am certainly not the strong person I thought I was.
And I hate explaining it over and over to friends about what has happened, and then feel like I must try to convince them that I am not talking bollocks and it is true that he did those things and was like that.
Oh, and my near death experience was that I decided to cut the hedges because they had got ridiculously neglected. Thought it would be a good task to show "I don't need him". And cut through the wire.
Survived though
Just a post to say thanks to all the posters on this section. There are some amazing people who help you see through the fog. I'm on my way
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Day 1. A lot of crying and a near death experience. But.....
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LadyBlaBlah · 13/06/2011 22:09
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