I was unloading onto an old friend and her DP this weekend about my relationship difficulties. Without spending ages going into all the details, myself and my DP were great friends for years before getting together but as a romantic relationship it just doesn't seem to work, despite counselling and lots of hard work on both sides. We have a young DD who was just his (he was widowed when she was a baby) but who now sees me as her mum and has done for the last few years (she's 5). I would be desperately unhappy if we split up because (I think) I would miss him and because of what it would do to her.
I think he loves me and wants us to be together but I feel unhappy and distant much of the time, because of our incompatibility (I need more companionship, tenderness, mellowness and romance than he is able to give). My friends DP said 'on a scale of 0-100 how much do you love him?' and I was completely stumped. Just didn't know how to answer. I care about him of course but I don't know if I 'love' him at all. How can I not know?!!
I yearn for the kind of love I've had before, and to be in a relationship with more fit between us. I often think about the future and imagine leaving in 3 or 4 years time, when its easier for DD to cope with. But it seems crazy to spend that long in limbo - neither working at this relationship or making space for a new one. If I really love him maybe I can focus on that and get through this rough patch. But there's a blank space where knowing how I feel should be. How do I know whether I really love him?
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newfashionedmum · 16/05/2011 20:40
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