I have no contact with exP. He's married, I'm married. My H is really nice but the relationship lacks spark. In part cos we have a 15 month old and are knackered, in part because the bedroom was never our strong suit. But I have this awful feeling I have made a major mistake. I am still in love with my ex. Or maybe with who I thought he was?? Oh god I dont know...I miss him (or maybe I just miss my responsibility free, fitter, slimmer, younger self???)
When he left me, it was brutal. I couldn't handle being friends after, so we aren't. Its all a long time ago (5 years plus). I didnt rebound into my current relationship (or so I thought) took my time, a few dates but am not one for casual sex (not disapproval, just get scared) so my H is first sexual partner after ex. Its not as good, but I have explained that to myself in various ways. But now am thinking its because we were soulmates and since he left I havent been able to really fall for someone else. I cant really let that guard down, or maybe its because of something else, my H has little sexual interest in me (I think).
Why am I still hung up on a man I havent seen in years? And where I know my current relationship is healthier/less co-dependent? I'm horrified that maybe I have made a huge HUGE mistake and we have a child together.
I thought I really had moved on. Got back up, made a new life for myself, and now have I just made a major mess???
Any thoughts at all?
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STILL not over him....and I have tried so hard
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oncemorewithfeeling · 23/04/2011 20:59
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