Hi, my DS1 was invited to a friends house last minute before school, so DS2 asks could he invite a friend over. I said no initially as I felt it was too last minute for another parent but he begged and I called the mum of one of his friends but he had other plans after school. DS was disappointed but it was my reaction has left me reeling. I was fuming because this other lad was going to another lads house! Crazy I know. I started in my mind going over how my DS has never been invited to this other lads (the third lad) house or his birthday party. I found myself angry at the mother, oh I could go on. Now, this was all done in my head, DS wouldn't have realised I was mad at all, in fact I was telling him 'we knew it was last minute, so we'll do it next week etc.' But the plain fact was I was totally jealous, mad, fuming!! Jekyll & Hyde.
This is a common occurance with me, It's mainly around relationships though. Basically I want to be the most popular person, I want my children to be the most popular children and us the most popular family. Its rarely about material things. I know this sounds like I'm an awful person and my rational mind tells me this is not reality. My main concern is I don't want to pass any of these vibes on to my children. I am very aware of this and at the moment this is all done in my mind and me fuming away at myself, it is anger I feel. This morning made me realise I need to get this in check.
I used to make friends easily as a child and was popular but messed up major as a teenager and lost a lot of them. After getting married we moved from our home area to somewhere we didn't know anyone. I haven't been able to make any close friendship since. Plenty acquaintances, everyone pleasant etc. but nothing close.
Has anyone ever gone through this? Even writing it down helps.
If you've read this far, thanks!
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momofboys · 08/04/2011 11:15
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