I have been seperated from my XH for over 4 years (though the financial shenanigans continue). We have 2 DD's age 9 and 3. My XH was a nasty abusive cheating arse.
I started a relationship with a lovely man over 2 years ago. He is an old friend from 20 years ago who I caught up with and we got together. He is generally a good bloke, good job, no kids, though lives miles away and works away. He loves my girls, and would and has done anything for us. He is fab when he's here.
But I'm just not in love with him :( There is no spark, the sex is ok but not amazing. And he annoys me, litle things that are no big deal and shouldnt really but they do.
I have tried to break it off a couple of times, and he always begs for another chance, and because he is so lovely and it is lovely to have someone look after us, do things, care for us etc etc. But this time I have firmly ended it, I have told him I dont love him and that is just not enough to base a relationship on, and it makes both of us unhappy. I feel utterly relieved, he is distraught.
I am sad. Why can't I love this lovely man, who adores me and my children, treats us so well, and would do anything for us, never raises his voice or gets angry.
Is it me? I am a pretty independant, self sufficient person. Is it damage from my XH? Is it just him, he's just not the one??
I've done the right thing, I know that, but I feel its such a shame and a waste. Can love grow, can you force yourself to love someone, I did try, but it wasnt working :(
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Why can't I love him?
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macdoodle · 17/02/2011 11:28
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