Bit of a strange one - have name change for obvious reasons. Just looking for an outside perspective, I can't talk to anyone in rl about it. Will tell it like it is, in a factual way.
Age 16 meet M and fall in love. We have a relationship through school and uni. We buy a house together. I am raped by an old school friend, D. M can't cope and begins abusing me. Doing to me every night what D did to me. This leads to him becoming physically abusive. Eventually I am persuaded to leave. Takes a further 3 years for him to stop hounding me and wanting to make another go of things.
I meet P. Don't fall in love but he is gentle and loving and kind. Get pregnant by mistake. Now bought a house together, got DD and a dog. Life should be perfect.
I miss M. I love M. I keep thinking about him, imagine us being together, wondering what he is up to. Looking him up on facebook, going through old love letters etc etc. Why?? Even I can see how wrong that is.
And I would hate to hurt P in any way, he has been so wonderful to me. Why do I feel like this.
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neverhappy · 26/01/2011 22:59
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