I'm 19 wks with id twins. I already have a 3 yr old DS.
I feel so down about this pregnancy. I have a rheumatic disease which is exacerbated by pregnancy - I am in agony in the 3 pelvic joints due to this, and despite one set of steroid injections so far (usually performed under general, I had them wide awake), localised anaesthetic patches, and paracetamol to the max - it flipping hurts.
I'm using crutches and wheelchair and have been told I will be until the end. I also had/have horrific sickness - it's now more manageable but I'm still on meds for that. I can't sleep - I'm getting about 3 hours sleep a night, but I'm so flipping tired I don't understand why I'm not sleeping.
But what is REALLY getting me down is I have, no joking, somewhere in the region of SIX hospital appointments per week. I have the pain clinic (they keep me sane and are doing a balancing act of my needs vs. babies), accupuncture (which gives a day of some relief from pain), obstetric physio, regular physio (they are dealing with different 'bits'), and then fortnightly scans and obstetricians appointments. On top of that I have been getting palpitations so have now had extra appointments for ECG's and now been referred to a cardiologist.
My hospital where all these appointments are is 40 minutes away, being rebuilt so there is a massive parking problem so I have to leave an extra 40 min or so just to find parking. Also been referred up to London for a specialised cardiac scan of the babies - nothing to do with my heart problem but apparently routine with monochorionic twins. I'm worried about the babies - the constant referring to high risk and TTTS is scaring me witless. I'm worried about me.
Our house is being renovated and won't be finished by the birth so we'll be moving out in to rented as well.
I know this is just how it's going to be but how can I get my head in to a positive frame of mind about this? If they make it to 36 weeks (which is what we're all hoping for) that means I've got another 17 weeks of this to go... I'm missing seeing friends, so feel isolated as well. And poor DS is barely seeing me at a time it would be nice to be spending more time together. I also feel really alone because no one can relate to my situation - it's so unique (my disability plus the id twins), even the consultants are having to question each other all the time, and that scares me.
If anyone has made reading this far, please give me some words of encouragement as to how to get on with it!
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Please could someone give me a kick up the backside to just get on with it, but let me have a good whinge first...
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Weegle · 27/08/2009 15:13
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