well i went on mat leave last wednesday, at 34 weeks. this is my second baby (dd is 2 and 2 months) and i was just getting really knackered all the time and my heart just wasn't in it at all. it was a struggle to even get to the office, let alone do any work. i have worked my behind off these last 6 months and just had nothing left to give.
because of extreme tiredness and previous experience of finding really hard to cope with newborn (i think i escaped pnd by a whisker, and sometimes i wonder whether i wasn't actually a bit depressed) dh and i have decided to keep our existing chidcare arrangements (nanny) until the summer- she is coming fewer hours but still coming 4 days a week.
well, now i am at a bit of a loss on what to do with myself. i suddenly feel much better physically, and i wonder whether i should have just worked for longer. suddenly occurred to me that it may be another 5-6 weeks before baby shows up- gulps- and there's only so many naps, yoga classes, lunches with friends etc i can take. yes there is lots to organise for new baby and also sort out things like remortgaging etc (good timing on that...) but i am also starting to feel guilty that i am being lazy and spoiled with nanny etc while in fact my savings disappear...
i am spending more time with dd in the mornings and evenings which is lovely but also wondering whether i shouldn't spend more time swith her...
basically i don;'t know what i want people to tell me- perhaps give me reasons to stop feeling guilty etc... i am so confused!
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now i am on mat leave, i suddenly don't know what to do with myself
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beforesunrise · 07/04/2008 19:37
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