I think I have coped really well for a long time generally, with a lot of challenges. This means, looking after my two dc (aged 9 and 5), eldest has severe cerebral palsy. We moved house recently and that was really stressful because we had to watch the builders carefully, and buy all of the equipment for my ds without much advice from anyone.
Since moving in, I can;t seem to get a grip on my dc. I am getting cross a lot, shout etc.
I think mainly it's my ds that's getting me down. He needs my attention constantly, and I am getting irritable with him a lot. That makes me feel really bad, because I want him to grow up to have a healthy self esteem.
Tonight was the worst for a while. My two dc went to bed early because I just had enough. I was managing to get them to bed ok, read a story, all was well. Then my dd lost her temper (didn't want to go to bed) and my ds was being aggressive and difficult, and I just shouted and lost it.
It seems to be a pattern. I am perfectly reasonable and calm for weeks (except for being irritable sometimes), then I lose it spectacularly one evening and shout and shout and hate myself for it.
My dc will remember my awful temper won't they? I want them to remember me as a loving mum, and all they will remember is a horrid angry one.
I hate myself for my temper, but as I say, it only happens occasionally, but when I lose it, I explode. It's shameful.
Am I alone with these outbursts? Please tell me it's normal. Because I don't remember my mum losing it like this.
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twoisplenty · 19/01/2009 20:50
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