I am starting to worry very much that this is the start of depression and I am not sure what I should do. Please share your experiences if you have been through this.
DS2 is the middle of 3 children, but only 16 months between him and his big brother who is very academic. DS2 is not academic and is in fact slightly struggling with school, but teachers are aware and he has a learning support teacher for 15 mins a week. (That's all they can give him). He has been tested for dyslexia, and although shows markers, these are normal for his age group.
DS1 loves sport, and is annoyingly good at everything, and I suspect this makes DS2 anxious and less likely to want to try anything. We got DS2 cycling and swimming competently, but only with 1-1 attention. He does not thrive in a group learning setting. We booked both DS1 and DS2 into taekwondo, but DS2 dropped out. DS2 does soccer but complains that he is always goalie and his lack of co-ordination means the other kids rarely choose him for their team. He also acts a bit odd which puts off his peer group. For instance, on day 1 of soccer, he raced into the sports hall and in front of all the other kids, started doing star jumps and press ups, and they just stared at him and marked him out as 'weirdo'.
He is amazingly confident with people and adults, and will talk to anyone. He is not afraid of big kids on their bikes at the park, or people in shops, or teachers or anyone. He is abundently confident in that respect and every adult who meets him is charmed by him.
His normal mantra is "this has been the worst day of my life" even after what most kids would think was a pretty good day. He has started groaning and saying "I'm just so grumpy" and I ask why and it's about something minimal, like not being allowed a second biscuit at tea, or not being allowed to watch the whole of Jurrasic Park at bedtime...normal things most parents would say couldn't happen.
He always used to be the robust one, but I now know he is very sensitive and wears his heart on his sleeve. My mother died this year (recently) and he has been very upset about that, but also in the period she was dying and I was travelling loads to see her, that's when he started with his "worst day of my life" and "no body likes me" chat (apparently because he 'can't do it'), so I feel this might not be co-incidence and that her dying has shaken his world, but also his self belief somehow.
He knows she is in a better place and he also sees me calmer as I'm not waiting for 'the crisis' of a loved one dying. For me the worst has been and gone in that respect and now it's about healing.
I am getting him a pet - he wanted a lizard, but I baulked at the feeding of live crickets so am getting him a couple of stick insects (point being he is absolutely responsible for caring for them).
I just don't know what's at the root of his low self esteem - is it genetic or is it our parenting? How do I build it up? How do I turn his balance between depression and happiness into being just happy? Do kids often say I want to Kill myself at this age??
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DS aged 6 has started saying he wants to die and he hates himself (long)
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Mythreeknights · 20/09/2016 14:58
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