Think it would be good for me to write this...

[ibblewob]

I'm having a miscarriage that started yesterday. I was only 6 weeks pregnant. I started off with spotting which has just got heavier and heavier, am now in full flow.

At first I wasn't hugely worried as exactly the same thing (heavy period like bleeding) happened with my son (now 3) and he was fine, but thought I should get it checked out just in case. Went to A&E and after 5 hours waiting the dr examined me and said he thought the cervix was closed (phew) but then afterwards changed his mind and wrote 'inevitable miscarriage' on the notes. Which I read upside down on the desk

They wanted me to stay in overnight but as I also have an 8 month old dd who is still breastfeeding I said no, and went home. My DH took the day off today and has looked after the kids, so I've just crashed on the sofa.

I think I'm ok - we weren't trying to get pregnant, and I know it would have been hard work with dd still such a baby (and there's already four of us in a tiny 2 bed flat!). But... you're never really ok, are you? I feel very heavy and sad, and hollow, and like my body has let me down in some way, and like I've let DH down. I would like to have more kids some day and I pray that we will... just hate the thought of going through this again.

Thanks to anyone who has read this

[fourlittlefeet]

{{{{{{{{{{{big hug }}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

[ibblewob]

Um... ok, a computer hug has just got me in tears. That's not being really ok, is it?

Thanks.

I'm glad we didn't tell too many people about the pg - just close family and a couple of friends. I'm not sure I could cope with all the sympathy!

[Lilyloo]

So sorry

[AmIWhatAndWhy]

I'm so sorry, I know words are no comfort at such a time.

Take care of yourself.

[Jools1]

I'm there with you - first pregnancy, first m/c started yesterday at 11.5 weeks.

I just can't wait for the physical pain and mess to finish so I can start to sort out how I feel about everything.

We WILL get through this

[VJay]

hi ibblewob and jools, come and join us on the emmys angels thread, we all support each other, and thay are are lovely bunch of ladies on there