I had a MMC about two months ago at just under nine weeks. It was terribly unexpected as I've never experienced a MC before. I have two healthy DC from a previous relationship.
I have also just had another MC this weekend gone, but we had only just found out so this time it was very early.
I'm supposed to be going out for drinks tomorrow night with friends (work leaving drinks). I haven't been out and let my hair down since before I became pregnant the first time, but I'm really struggling with the idea of it, and it makes me feel so sad. I shouldn't be going out drinking, I should be at home stroking my bump and feeling my baby kick and wriggle around.
I've gained so much weight since I discovered I was pregnant the first time and I feel so horrible. Not only do I have no baby, I have baby weight that I can't even be bothered to do anything about.
I used to run loads, 3/4 times a week and enter loads of races. I haven't run since January and I wobble all over. I feel disgusting.
I've just lost so much. My babies, my figure, my fitness, the fun I used to have. And I don't know how to get it back, or even if I'm ready to get it back.
I thought I was doing ok. Then Saturday morning we got our wonderful BFP and we were overjoyed to be given a second chance. Then 5 hours later I began bleeding and heavily. I'm still heavily bleeding now and I'm wiped out.
I know the way I'm feeling is probably exacerbated by exhaustion from blood loss as this MC has been very very heavy. I've been checked over and had a scan yesterday so I know, physically, I'm fine. But I just feel so sad tonight and DP is out until late with a friend.
I don't know how I'm going to cope tomorrow night, but I also don't want to miss another night out with my favourite work mates.
Most of them know what's happened, and I'm pretty sure they all think I need a good night out.
I miss having fun.
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Feel sad about going out for drinks
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FrazzleRock · 27/04/2016 19:58
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