A year ago today I lost my baby and I almost died int the process. After finding out my babies heart had stopped beating I waited to miscarry naturally. I had to wait for four weeks and it was the most terrible time of my life, I don't know how I got through it, knowing my baby was dead inside me was like a living hell.
I went into cervical shock during the miscarriage and lost a lot of blood very quickly, on the way to hosptal in the ambulance I honestly thought I was going to die.
I wanted that baby more than anything and the whole experience off me devistasted.
A year later I thankfully have a beautiful 5 week old daughter who I am eternally greatful for. I didn't have the best pregnancy and I thought I was losing her too in early pregnancy, but I am so happy she's here and healthy.
But today is hard. I've been crying on and off and to top things off I am having my first persons since her birth, which is very heavy and keeps brining back very painful memories.
Dh is no help. He'd obviously forgotten all about it and when I did bring it up he just said 'oh right' and carried on.
I know I have dd now, and god, I feel like the luckiest person on earth that I have her, but I am still so sad about the baby I lost.
I don't know why I am posting really, but I can't talk to dh about it. D I have no one else.
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Loopylouu · 04/05/2014 16:45
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