Well today or tomorrow is my due date of our first baby which we terminated in June at 15 weeks, after finding out she would not survive.
I was really hoping to be pregnant again but I am not. We are really not feeling Christmassy, not putting up any decorations nor can I bring myself to send cards. I keep thinking of xmas day we should have a new born, but we won't.
My emotions are undecided. I was fine at work today, I think having a distraction was good but I had a few customers with babies and heard a few little babies crying. I felt like I was being ripped open from the inside out.
I didn't sleep well last night and I don't think I'll sleep well tonight either. It doesn't help my period is due this week so my hormones are going mental.
I'm sorry if this has been rambling, thank you if you have read. It's not fair.
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It's my due date today or tomorrow.
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FluffyDucky · 09/12/2013 21:21
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