In december, I knew I was pregnant (I already have a daughter and just seem to "know" before I'm even late) but I started bleeding very lightly, I went to the docs and after loads of blood tests and scans, they found it in my tubes. I was treated with methatrexate and told to wait 3 months before ttc again, we did and I fell pregnant almost straight away, I had a scan at 8 weeks because of the ectopic and everything looked fine, although I didn't think anything of it at the time, my measurememtns were 7+5 when I thought by my dates I was 8+1. But when I went for my 12 week scan on Tuesday last week they told me it had died at about 9 weeks, just a week after we saw the heartbeat and thought this one was going to be fine.
I had a managed miscarriage in hospital, it all happened so quickly, I had the first lot of tablets on Tuesday just an hour after the scan (I knew I couldn't face waiting for it to happen naturally and I couldn't face surgery either so there was no need to wait and decide) and spent the day there Thursday. It wasn't happening properly even though I was passing some big clots; the first lot I buzzed the nurses from the loo (don't know if it's the same everywhere, but I had to pass everything into a cardboard bowl in the loo so they can check it all) as I was terrified, that amount of blood in one go cannot be normal right? So they gave me some more tablets to speed things up but still nothing, just loads more huge clots, Eventually they sent me home and told me to ring in the morning and they would decide if I needed to come back.
I passed the entire sac Thursday evening, I was sitting down and felt an urge to push, I couldn't do anything about it so I went to the loo, they supplied me with bed pans before I left hosp and there it was. I took it in on Friday and they confirmed I had passed everything. The nurse actually said "poor you that must have really hurt". Yes thank you it was a bit uncomfortable! FFS!!!
I haven't been too bad over the weekend but today I just can't stop crying, DH has gone back to work, SIL has taken DD so that I can rest so I'm on my own, I just feel lost and so so tired. My ectopic would have been due next month and I was so pleased to be pregnant before my due date came round but right now I don't know how I'm going to get through it.
I feel light headed and dizzy but the hosp just said I need to drink more water but I already drink loads, everyone always comments on it and I have drunk loads more than is normal for me this weekend.
I'm sorry to have waffled so much and thank you if you have made it to the end - I can't be accused of drip feeding!
I think I just need reassurance that it will get better, I dealt with the ectopic well, but this has just floored me and I'm not used to feeling like this, physically or emotionally.
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TheHormonesMadeMeDoIt · 15/07/2013 12:09
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