I have a huge life changing move coming up and I can't talk to anyone as they either think I'm ungrateful or try to be supportive but don't relate so can't really help! I feel I'm boring people the few times I mention leaving let alone ever having a chance to share my true feelins!
I find it hard to open up to people anyway, even the closest of friends. The few times I have asked to someone who try's to help someone comes along and interupts convo with useless stuff and poo poos me.
The only person I can share with and relate to is my OH but I feel I'm stressing them out with it as they have enough pressure let alone feeling like they are ruining my life- which is not true, I just hate the unknown and scared of leaving my life, losing all my friends, and having to start over.
It's took me so long to settle here and realise what my toxic mother does to me / our family. I find it hard to trust people especially women and I really don't want to do it again even though I know I have to as I love OH and never planned on staying in this county but truly didn't think I was going to leave the country.
I know I chose to marry my OH, knowing the prospect oe at maybe moving abroad but I suppose I didn't truly think it would happen - kind if surreal. 10 years dwb the line and its going to happen!
I am excited and think it will be an adventure, with so many opportunities for my family but what if its awful, I can't just come home! I have more stresses on top with my pets.
Sorry for babble I just need to get my feelings of my chest
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Time2Nap · 15/03/2013 22:35
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