My lovely lovely mum was diagnosed with lung cancer a couple of months ago. The prognosis is uncertain and she's had a week of radiotherapy with chemo likely too.
I know logically she's 84 and will not last forever and that there's no reason any of us shouldn't have cancer etc.I am surprised by how grief stricken and angry I feel. It's just crept up on me this last fortnight. i just want to scream and cry and lash out at anyone and anything. I feel guilty feeling like this. I am due to spend this weekend with her but am worried about her seeing how upset I am and making her feel worse when she needs support.
I know I sound horribly selfish and really hope not offend anyone; I know my mum has had a long and happy life.
I suppose I'm just asking if it's normal to feel like this. I feel like I'm grieving when I should be helping her the most and yet I'm not even the one who's sick. I,m a lone parent with three youngish dcs who don,t yet know their granny is ill and don,t feel I can talk to anyone In real life even though I have friends. I feel if I start crying I'll never stop. Please help me get some sort or perspective
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Life-limiting illness
Why am I so angry?
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zookeeper · 20/03/2014 05:50
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