childcare/mummy break options..opinions wanted

[steph1512]

hi not really sure the bestplace to put this conversation but here we go..

i has 2dds and another dc on the way in 8wk(1/4/10)

my first two daughters will thne be 3yr9mth and 2yr exactly.

so here is my dilema..

my husband is currently a member of really nice gym/hotel that has a really nice onsite nursery for member use only it really is gorgeous a cottage set within the stately homes gardens with hgih staff numbers n low child numbers..as you can imagine it isnt the cheapest membership and on top of your gym/pool use etc you r entilted to 6hr complementry childcare per wk in slots of 3hr or less all yr round. no set hours just flexible to when you need.

i currently use these hours4my youngest on a tues and thurs am and my eldest who is now funded does 5ams at the pre schoolin the village two min walk down the rd.

this obvioulsy gives me two ams to get thigs done have some time to myself or a bit of wk mobile haridressing etc..a luxury i know.

i am now in two minds what to do for the future the membership is up 4renual when baby no3 is due.

my two options are...

to continue with the membership giving me six hours to use however i feel needed including school hols (baby is due over my eldests 3wk easter break and baby will be approx3mth old come the summmer hol break) this would give the option of my eldest having a little extra during holiday periods and from a selfish point of view me a little break and baby time. ps she also went to this nursery two ams from around18mth until funding started and does go sometimes during hols to.

the other option is to scrap the membership (no going back afterwards due to joining fee off 600pounds!originally paid by inlaws)
if i did this i would then be able to send my 2dd to my eldests pre school one or two ams (would work out the same per wk..but only term time) the things that would be nice about this would be that they would have a term together there before eldest starts school i can also drop off at same time place and it is too lovely ther etc.

the not so good things would be...set hours and no childcare at all during school hols so first three weeks with newborn with all 3at home then the summer break to.

i know your prob thinking this sounds awful and dont get me wrong i love having time with my children but also sometimes really do feel the need for a break or time to do house eetc but my feeling is i would like to just say go for it n forget membership n i will get throu the hols but i am wondering if i am being unrealistic and in reality i wont really cope/enjoy n end up stressed

both my girls are fairly active n in a usually wk we do quite alot so also concerned that to go from that to a big dip in plans and a new baby over the hols may be hard for them and me. think the thought of coping with 3under4 is kicking in

Am i being unreasonable?? i would love to hear some thought from other mums or of any experience getting throu hols in similar situatons

thanks