Struggling to study, hoping to get back to work

[queenceleste]

Finding it so hard, well finding it almost impossible.
I feel so full of regret that I stopped working to look after my kids. But I think long infertility made me desperate to be with them.
I can't seem to just get down to it, it's so difficult and I keep getting distracted thinking why didn't I do this all years ago.
I don't want to say what I am studying, don't want to identify myself.
If anyone could say something which could encourage me that I might succeed and not to despair I would really appreciate it. Feel I've been so misguided for so long that it must be too late.
Donations of Hope/positive thinking etc would be brilliant.