I'm worrying...tmi..

[HeeBeeGeebies]

I can't sleep because I panicing that I have cancer.

I have thought that I may have piles for a while now. Have had a little blood when wiping and felt a bit uncomfortable round my bum (sorry tmi!) but I'm a idiot and I've been ignoring it because I'm embarrassed about going to the Drs. But this evening when I was having a bath, I had a feel and it feels really weird around my anus and there is a large and hard lump in the space in between my anus and vagina. It's hard to explain...it's not exactly a lump but more like the gap between my anus and vagina is swollen and is being pushed outwards, if that makes sense. At first I thought it was definitely piles, then maybe an abscess/fistula but the more I read the more I'm convinced that I have anal cancer or colon cancer. I'm terrified. I am 23 and had a baby almost 2 years ago, generally healthy if a little overweight.

I know there's nothing I can do apart from ringing the Dr tomorrow but I'm so scared that there's something really wrong and I've just been ignoring it. I just wanted to write that down.

[littleblackno]

I'm not a medical person but I doubt very much that you have cancer. Go to your doctor ASAP and put your mind at rest. I know it's a bit embarassing but it's nothing they've not seen before and if you've had a baby then it's nothing you've not had looked at before either!
If there is something wrong then the sooner you get it looked at the sooner it can be sorted.
x

[HeeBeeGeebies]

Thanks for replying, little. I am just working myself up into a state about it, which is silly as there's nothing I can do until I see the Dr. I'm just so pissed off with myself for letting it get to this stage, if I'd gone to the Dr as soon as I started worrying, all would probably be fine!

[tabbycat15]

Sounds like a pile or a prolapse. Best to be checked but I'm sure it will turn out ok. See a nice female Dr rather than a male one if you can. My make Dr is lovely but I always see a female one for smear tests as I feel less embarrassed.

[callow]

Could be a Bartholin?s cyst
www.nhs.uk/conditions/Bartholins-cyst/Pages/Introduction.aspx

It might need surgical drainage which is given the wonderful name of marsupialization.

[HeeBeeGeebies]

Thanks for the replies.

I don't think it's a cyst because its definitely hard, not squishy. Also the mass is definitely inside. Eeurgh, it sounds so gross!

I've done some reading and it seems like it could be a prolapse of some sort. I feel like I've got pressure between my bum and vagina basically. :-(

I've couldn't get a drs appointment til Monday the 4th. Which is really irritating as I just want to get it seen to ASAP. I might ring at the beginning of the week to see if there's been any cancelations.

[RooneyMara]

The bleeding may be nothing to do with it - that can easily be caused by a small cut, also are you sure the lump isn't just, well, whatever is inside your bottom? If you have a rectocele or similar it can feel like the poo is in the wrong place iyswim.

Please don't panic. It's really likely to be easily explained by something totally benign.

[HeeBeeGeebies]

Rooney, I've just read this en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rectocele and I'm pretty sure that's what it is. I did have a small tear when my son was born so that could explain in. I thought I'd got away lightly in relation to his birth, but maybe not!

[RooneyMara]

Well you can often sort these out with exercise apparently. I thought I had one after ds2 was born (now 5) but the dr didn't think so...I definitely had some changes down there, I think my vb stretched some muscles and so things were a bit odd for a while. But I guess with time it sorted itself out - just had third baby and everything seems roughly Ok.

See what the doc says, it could be very easy to sort out, whatever is causing it.
Take care x

[HeeBeeGeebies]

Thanks Rooney. I think I knew not that long after giving birth that something wasn't quite right, I wish I'd done something sooner but for various reasons I decided to ignore it .

I just spoke to dp and feel a bit better, he was worried for me but reassuring too.

[RooneyMara]

I doubt you have done any harm by not acting sooner - it may not have warranted anything being done sooner anyway. It may not even now

Glad you have a supportive DP. Hope you get some answers.