So I've been whinging on another thread about how I feel like a fraud in my job. Lots of lovely posts from MNers reassuring me that I'm probably less shit than I think. Which has made me feel all brave and feeling like I want to admit what I've actually always dreamed of doing. I've heard of so many people recently who've finally had the guts to go for their dream career so.....
I would love to be an actor. There.
Now the even more ridiculous thing about this is I've never pursued drama in any form. I did it at school (aged about 12) as it was compulsory and I loved it. But I never realised at that age how important it was to find a passion and really go for it. No one in my family has ever had a real passion so in some ways I never had an example to follow if that makes sense (not that I'm blaming my family). Ive always been a bit of a show -off (hopefully not in an annoying way) and love making people laugh - all that kind of thing. My mum always says she wished she had got me into drama as she thinks i would have loved it as a kid. When I was older I always chose to study more "academic" subjects as I thought it was important to get "proper" qualifications and not fanny around with drama or art or music - things I would actually have loved.
Even when I went to uni - which would've been the perfect opportunity to join a drama group but I was too self-conscious and a bit put-off by the OTT luvvie drama kids. What a dick.
All shit excuses. But honestly, I have dreamt about it for years. I hear about people like Samuel L Jackson and Ricky Tomlinson who didn't start acting til in their 40s and it makes me think maybe it's not too late to give it a try. I watch people like Julie Walters and the actors in This is England or comedies like Gavin & Stacey (random selection!) and i just think i would love to have a go at something like that. Chances are I'd be utter shit, I know, but I'm wondering if it's time to stop being a dick and give it a go?
I'm aware I sound like a total head-in-the-clouds idiot but sod it. I think I'm ready to stop being a 5 yr old and join a drama group or something. Even if I just do it as a hobby to get it out of my system.
So my questions are:
- Any tips? Any particular groups I should look into? Only thing is I can't bear theatre-type jazz-hands style acting...I know, I know, but its just too OTT.
2) Anybody else have a real DREAM job that they're too scared to admit to in real life?