I had Birth Trauma (PTSD after birth) when my eldest was born nearly 8 years ago, it's no longer a day to day issue but it does mean that random things can trigger easier than they should.
I have worked for my housing association (ie the one I rent from) for the last 10 years in various volunteer roles, mostly different panels but at some points I have been full time with them. I limited my career/ training options before I had my children because I was full time with them, I limited my search when my physical disability meant I needed to move house as I wanted to stay within the association. I have always had a good reputation within the company including the directors. I took a break after my eldest was born and attended a special meeting on my estate when she was a toddler, the man running it was someone I hadn't met before and after that meeting he went back to the office and said "I've just met someone we need working with us" to one of the managers, she asked what their name was and when he said she said "I know her, she's good, it would be good to get her back". Since then I have been at their beck and call, they use me to fill numbers when they have a meeting that they can't recruit or telephone interviews. I was in hospital after my second daughter was born taking phone calls and booking meetings. All my kids have been to meetings as I was going when they were tiny, one of them even went on a training weekend.
I have been working for a couple of years on the Scrutiny Panel. Basically the govt disbanded the governing body and told organisations they had to do it themselves, so we're an important, high level group. A few months ago it was announced that we would at some unspecified point in the future be having appraisals for the first time. I have had a rough stressful time in my personal life recently which has meant lots of reports and meetings (very difficult to explain without going into more detail than I'm happy to) and the idea of another group triggered my PTSD. I can hardly sleep and when I do I have been having nightmares, I can't open post or the front door anyone who visits knows to ring my mobile and tell me they're about to press the intercom, I'm crying all the time and constantly on edge. I had an email asking me to go to my appraisal, it came very last minute and as usual they expect us all to be on call for them. I said that I wasn't available and admitted that actually this has made me very ill. There was no suggestion of what can we do differently, how can we help etc I was basically told you do it or step down.
I argued that I would not step down (they can't "fire" me) and they can't force me to over this because it's disability. It ended up going up to the manager who decided to get it investigated by the complaints team. I've just had a letter saying that I can't continue unless I do this appraisal and it's my own fault for not saying something sooner. The fact I was shaking in my bed (I barely leave my bedroom at the moment so that I can't be seen from outside) and could barely speak to anyone in my family even is obviously irrelevant.
I love my job, I love my HA, I don't want to lose this after the sacrifices I've made for them over the years and besides I don't think they should be allowed to get away with this. Do I have support under DDA? What do I do now?
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PTSD has cost me my role, help!
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confuddledDOTcom · 22/03/2014 17:14
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