Anxious everytime i go out

[Asaroe91]

I have recently stopped contact with my kids and their dad because he was continually shouting and being abusive infront of them. He and his mum drove off with my ds after he kicked me in my legs before xmas. I stopped it from then. But every since it happened begin Dec i have been so nervous and anxious to go out. I keep looking out the window bcz i think him and his family are looking through. I feel like I am being spied on when I go out. I live with my mum and brother at the moment and I feel like me and the kids r in the way. My brother is a clean freak and we argued last night. He said some things that my ex used 2 say to me and they really hurt but I am trying my best with everything.

[Asaroe91]

I just dont want to be here anymore.

[TreeTop7]

Hi.
I think that perhaps you should contact Women's Aid about the violence. They can advise.

You may be able to obtain local authority housing for you and the children.

[Asaroe91]

Im already in communication with Womens Aid. I am awaiting counselling also. I have really good days where I feeel soo positive but then I have extremely bad days like today. The anxiety is still there on and off but I think maybe its bcz I know what the family are like. They can just turn up without warning. Not that I mind it bcz my own family do that but the way they are in general is abit awkward and uncomfortable. And they leave a bad vibe. I know alot of people dont believe in that kind of stuff. I just got too much on my head. I know what to do tho I think I am just writing to get things out n clear my head so sorry for the going on n on but its helping me think clearly.

[TreeTop7]

Don't apologise! Writing things down does help - this, I know from recent experience.