Hi I'm just wanting a bit support and advice I don't know where to turn? I'll give you a bit background, well I got married in March everything was great until about 2 weeks before I saw my other half had been looking at she male escorts. He had been watching a lot of porn but I wasn't too bothered I'd just had a baby in January so I understood. I didn't realise he was into this she male stuff! I asked him he said he was just looking and wouldn't see an escort or a she male and he was embarrassed by all this it was just a thing he enjoyed. We got married and on that night got very drunk, I don't like his friends much as I feel they look down on me and I said something about it and his parents talking about my son!!! He flipped out so as everyone was in our house I asked them to leave! He started packing his stuff, I grabbed his arm and he pinned me on the bed by my throat, his mam and my friend came in and got him off then he back handed me across my face and he left. We tried to make things work but I have become very depressed, he's also started following two of his exs on Twitter which completely threw me? I just don't understand. Today he has said he's had enough and is coming to get his things after work tonight. No thought about our 5 month old daughter! I know I'm really depressed and down right now but I feel like I'm nothing to him, all I can think about is escorts?!? Is this all down to me?