TTC#2...when is going to happen or me?? :-(

[PandaEis]

hi

i just thought i would start a thread for me to have a moan

DH and i have been TTC#2 since sept 2007 when i had my coil taken out. i have had 3 early MCs which puts me at a grand total of 4MCs to date i am overweight but not much heavier than when i concieved with DD i am losing weight steadily to rule that out though. we have both had all of the tests and i chart my bbt, check CM, cervical position etc i try to relax and keep positive but it is so hard we are not eligable for any sort of NHS funded fertility treatments so that avenue is out and there appears to be nothing wrong with either of us
every bugger (who doesnt want another baby) that i know are getting preg by accident and then moaning how shite it is!! i am a long term member of afew threads on here ad i am the last TTCer on a thread of newborns and pregnant ladies and i just feel more and more of a failure every time one of the ladies has their baby dont get me wrong, i am overjoyed for the ladies in question as alot of them have had a hard time of it and deserve their babies so much and they are all fantastic bunch of women

it is just so hard to be happy when i feel so bleak inside
when is it going to be me??

[MavisEnderby]

Aww Eis.Sorry you are feeling so sad.I can't give you any answers I am afraid.Only that you are NOT a failure.It is just that bugger fate,(the same one that gave dp a shitey illness and dd SN)

Have you considered getting some more in depth testing? Isthere any way you could fund fertility treatment|?

{{hug}}

[PandaEis]

thanks mavis

no for the £400 pricetag that the consultant has suggested we would get ONE unmonitored cycle on clomid and for the bargain price of £200 we could throw in a scan ontop we cant afford £600 for a less than 40% chance of success DH just wont agree to that at all

its just so unfair!!

my best friend's sister found out she is pregnant and we went to a concert on monday where all she did was bitch and moan that 'this f@#%ing baby makes me feel sick whenever i have a drink (alcopop) so i can only have one or two'

[EndangeredSpecies]

Just saw your profile pics Panda. The baby you do have is absolutely beautiful.

Why not invoke sod's law: start a new job or OU course, start redecorating the house or commit to something else that takes up lots of time and effort - then when you're rushed off your feet you'll suddenly find you're pg .

[SamsGirl]

Hi, this is my first time posting anything -ever. I usually just look through but never post. ttc for 2 years now. I thought this month was my month as I was 3 days late and seemed to be having pg symptoms (obviously all in my head!)- but then the witch arrived this morning. I was so upset. Everyone around me seems to be falling pregnant at the drop of a hat. I have booked an appointment with the doctor to find out what is going on. I don't have PCOS or anything and my periods are always 28 days on the dot, so I really can't work out why this just isn't happening. I sympathise with anyone in the same situation because it is truely heartbreaking! I would be great to hear from anyone else in the same situation. X x x

[PenguinPoo]

Panda I really feel for you, wish I could wave a magic wand and make it all right, I think it's disgusting you can't even get clomid on the NHS where you live, life is very unfair BTW nice to hear we're a fantastic bunch of women

[ClaireDeLoon]

Ei hugs for you

[PandaEis]

thanks for the responses

penguin you know it

ES thanks i am unbelievably grateful to have my DD as i know i am very lucky but it still hurts to know that i cant give her the one thing she constantly asks for a little baby brother/sister

samsgirl hope you are ok and you get your BFP soon xx

[maxpower]

Hi Ladies, sympathise with you all. It took us ages TTC DD and we've been trying TTC2 for over 18months now. I've had a few false alarms (lots of familiar symptoms but then nothing). It's really beginning to get to me. I'm a positive person by nature so it's not like me to let something get me down like this. My DH has just started training to be a paramedic so he's wrapped up in studying all the time, so I guess I'm left with ages to dwell on this. Anyway, good luck everyone.