Scared its a BFP!

[StormBird]

Hi Everyone,

I'm one of thse girls you can set your clock by when it comes to AF's arrival. 10am every 28 days.

It currently CD30 for me. I tested on CD27 with an internet cheapy and a second line appeared if only for about 5 seconds which made me wonder but I just put it down to an evap line. Now I'm late and I'm really scared its a BFP.

I fell pregnant back in Feb 2010 - unplanned, scary at first but we came to terms with it and started to get excited. At 15wks we found out that our baby was suffering with Annencephaly and the doctors described this as incompatible with life. We made the decision to terminate. Its been a very very difficult few months for us both. I go from really wanting a baby one minute to completely hating the idea the next. Financially we are probably not ready nor are our living arrangements ideal. We are both 28 and have been together for 4 yrs, my DP is the man of my dreams and we love each other very much, he'd make a fab father and is very keen on the idea but obviously has the same worries.

What is the matter with me. I can't even bring myself to test! I'm scared that it will all go wrong again and I'm scared its not the right time.

Has any one here ever felt this way before?

[StormBird]

AF got me this AM.

[OnlyWantsOne]

Really sorry Stormbird :(

[StormBird]

its OK onlywantsone and thanks. Think its just mae me realise I am over thinking everything. I definately want a BFP and when it happens we will overcome our obstacles I am sure. xx

[OnlyWantsOne]

... go and have a long walk with DP and a nice pub lunch some where :)

[raspberrytipple]

I think I will feel a little scared when I get a BFP - a bit 'OMG its actually happened' and after everything you've been through stormbird its not surprising you have reservations. You are bound to be a little anxious and that's understandable. Now you have AF just have loads of fun trying this month. I don't think there is ever a 'right' time to have a baby. I have friends who put it off for years but got to mid 30's and thought, damn it really still isnt right but we have to do it now. They now have a lovely little boy and as soon as he was born just said, well, there wont ever be a right time but you adapt so quickly to your new life you forget about the worries you had before LO came along, they just seem to fit in! xx

[RunLyraRun]

Hello Stormbird, just wondered if you were aware of this thread? You might find it helpful. Best wishes xx

[StormBird]

Thanks girls and thak you Run I didn;t know about this thread sounds right up my street

XXX