Just after some advice really as I've been feeling this was for a few months now. I'll explain everything so as not to drip feed.
I've never had a close relationship with my dad. Him and my mum separated when I was 2 and during childhood it would be the odd weekend he would nip over and see me and then it's memories of me sat crying with my mum because he was late or didn't turn up. As I was growing up I would go for weekends at his probably once every three months. Past few years we've been a bit closer and he's spoke to me about a few issues he's having at home and I feel more like someone to lean on and get sympathy from than a daughter. Still contact is limited to maybe once a month even throughout my pregnancy.
He has two other children from his now wife and I have never been included in his family holidays or getaways (I have always had a great relationship with DSM and don't think that's the issue-she's very much a more the merrier type)
Anyway I had told him that I was to be induced and that I didn't want people knowing until DC was here and safe, he then got all pathetic telling me who he thinks I should tell and if he told so and so they wouldn't say anything. I put my foot down and ignored it. I told him I would let him know after the birth and that he could visit when I was home. We're not close, we don't have the father daughter bond and that was just how it was.
I had DM and DP as my birthing partners and didn't want anyone else at the hospital, DPs parents wanted to be there waiting, which I'd originally said no to but after realising DP wanted them there I told him they could wait around and nip up after the birth.
I ended up being induced on the Thursday and not going to the labour ward until Saturday, I was cramping and in pain and I was happy to just have DP and DM there as my visitors (DP patents didn't come until I was sent to labour ward). My dad kept texting DM hounding her constantly asking how things were, if he could come etc. I kept saying no due to not knowing when I was to be sent to the labour ward and quite frankly, because I didn't want him there. It got to the point where DM had a to send a rather short reply saying "We don't know what's happening, I will let you know when we do".
Time came when I was sent up to labour ward and DC arrived after a rather traumatic labour, I'd just been stitched up and it was pretty touch and go throughout labour. DPs parents came up quickly and my mum texted DD to say baby had arrived safely and I would let him know when I was home. Next thing she knows he's replied saying he's on his way
He turned up when I was the most vulnerable I'd ever been, at what should have been a precious moment with people we wanted there and he started hugging me and telling me how proud he was. It made me uncomfortable and he had no right to be there!!
Nearly a year on I'm still so mad!! He's seen DC about five times since. Tries to play the doting grandad and makes it all about him.
He took our moment, he's not been the dad he should have been, he didn't deserve to share that time and I'm so mad. I don't know if I'm being unreasonable but I can't seem to get past this!
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How can I get past this and stop being angry?
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AJ279 · 18/03/2016 10:28
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