It's been on my mind so much. I need to share this to get it straight in my head and to hear from mums who had a much better second birth. Thanks for indulging me.
At 38+3, 2 am my waters went in bed. Contractions started immediately and we went in to get checked out as I was high risk due to a low-lying fibroid. Got sent home feeling happy but knowing baby was posterior. I laboured at home until 7 pm using all my hypnobirthing and then went in.
Only 2 cm and devastated as I was in agony. Also baby was distressed. Laboured another 8 hours in hospital and only progressed half a cm. Asked for pethidine but wasn't allowed it because of baby's heart rate. By now I was only allowed to lie down because baby was in more distress when I was mobile, on ball or all fours... and these were the only positions that helped me cope. Then drip started and I only remember hallucinating until an epidural was put in a couple of hours later. Drip kept having to stop as baby heart rate got critical and they took blood from his head before restarting drip. 9 hours after drip started I was ready to push but DS heart didn't return to baseline quickly enough after pushes and we got rushed to theatre where I was prepped for cs but DS was born by trial forceps.
Then I haemorrhaged (actually from a wound in my vagina from the forceps) and was being stitched up for 2 hours 40 mins.
Anyway I didn't sleep the next night because of the adrenaline and the bright lights of HDU and I didn't realise how I'll I was until I was given 3 units of blood. The next night on the ward I didn't sleep because DS literally screamed all night. Then after going home we ended up back on the children's ward with an ill baby and I was up for two more nights on the ward expressing and trying (failing) to feed it to him.
At the end of all this, having missed 5 and a half nights sleep, severely anaemic, in pain and with an infection in the wound, I started trying to look after a newborn. Unsurprisingly this led to PHD.
Thank you if you made it this far. Please tell me 2nd time will be better. I'm especially scared about the recovery while trying to bf my newborn and look after 18 mo DS.
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Due in 2 weeks with no. 2 and I suddenly need to share last birth story
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Purplelooby · 01/03/2014 21:39
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