Feeling rubbish about myself but don't want to stop breastfeeding

[Em1503]

Hi, my DD is just over 6 months and I love breastfeeding her despite a really rocky start. Anyway I stopped feeding her off my right breast as it didn't produce as much milk and DD would cry/scream/refuse to feed off it. I tried really hard to keep her feeding off it (tried feeding her from that one at the start/midway/ at the end of the feed etc, expressing to up the supply) but it was too hard and after a month of expressing and having a screaming baby at every feed I decided to just feed her off my left one instead. It's been soooooo much easier and DD is much happier again.

However I've now got really different sized boobs and am going to have to put up with this for another 6 months as I want to feed her at least until she's a year old. I stuff my bra on one side so it's fine most of the time but despite this it's really knocked my confidence and made me self conscious. My DH was clearly shocked when her saw how lopsided they are even though he didn't mean to show it and it's made me feel even worse about myself. I can't bring myself to undress in front of him or see me naked. We've got a beach holiday coming up which is just making things worse.

I really don't want to stop feeding DD but if I stopped then my boobs would return to normal and I'd stop feeling so rubbish about myself. Don't know what to do or how to make myself feel better.

[tiktok]

Lopsidedness is temporary, Em, I promise you.

Plenty of women end up feeding on one side only.

For a few days the difference is noticeble. Then it evens out.

[Sunflower1985]

Practical solution ... Could you get a discreet insert.

[acattocatchat]

I don't mean to dismiss your concerns at all, so please don't read this in that way.

But, if you can, try to focus on how fantastic those breasts of yours are, and what a wonderful thing they have done in feeding your DD, and how important that is for you and for her.

There is a lot online about feeling body confident after pregnancy and childbirth and the need to focus on how amazing our bodies are for producing and nourishing little people. It might be worth hunting around and seeing if you can find something that speaks to you on that front.