Double anniversaries in Jan. hard to cope.

[MiscellaneousAssortment]

I posted in relationships over Christmas. First time posting in this section. Feels a big deal. Admitting they're gone.

Sister and father. Gone and not peacefully. Hard deaths. Hard loves too. Hate January, it's the month that rips away my family.

Sister died 2 days before her birthday. I decided to give her the less exciting presents for Christmas that year, leave the best for her birthday. She never got to open them. Was a few years ago, I don't like to count, hurts more.

Then my dad. One year and 10 days ago. Very traumatic. My mother behaved so cruelly, she broke me.

And it's the gift that keeps on giving. Genetic condition that I have too, disabled and rely on carers. DS (5) may have it too.

Am so alone. And I hurt so much. lucky me, don't need to wait, I'm living in hell on earth.

[Epilepsyhelp]

Oh misc that must be horrendous for you, I can totally see why January is so hard for you. I don't have any constructive advice as I know there is nothing to say that can make it easier but writing it all down is a big step. Keep talking about it if it helps at all.

[MiscellaneousAssortment]

Thanks. No one in rl phoned/ texted/ messaged/ facebooked on NY day. It's like I've dropped off the face of the earth as everyone's too busy celebrating / don't want to be reminded of the downer that is my inconvenient tragedies

[Epilepsyhelp]

People can find it really hard to reach out when someone has been so badly hurt, they don't know what to say or how to say it. It sucks though, all it would take is a text.

Is there anyone you can reach out to? You can always talk about them on here.