Over the last few years, I lost a parent (being vague as don't want to be too easily identifiable), a dear friend and the chance of having children
I think I've only started to grieve now, and grieving about not having children
(Sorry, if this offends anyone, please accept my apologies, I am not thinking very clearly. I haven't spoken much about this in RL)
I can't talk about losing my parent because 'I should be over that now'
I can't talk about losing the chance of having children to my friends, because I don't want to dampen their happiness, and I don't want them to think of me as attention-seeking
But I feel so angry that I can't talk to them. I smile and tell them how beautiful their children are and play with their children. Inside I'm shouting
I feel their lives are opening out and mine are closing down. I want to be with my friend. I want to talk to the parent I lost.
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gritinmysandwich · 16/01/2015 14:56
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