This time last year...

[dtsmum]

I had just helped my Mum with her treatment, and the conversation went like this: "are you okay Mum?" "Yes love I'm fine" "I love you" "I love you too". That was the last conversation I had with her. Tomorrow morning at 10am will be a year since I found my best friend on the bedroom floor. And at 7:30pm - kicking out time in ICU - it will be a year since my fantastic, wonderful Mum knew who me, my DS and DB were. Mum died on 15th April 2013. I miss her so much. I don't even know why I am writing this, it is just nice to share with those who understand. X

[ssd]

I understand completely (unfortunately )

I'm sorry

I dont know when it gets better, for some reason I can cry whenever I think of my mum and my loss (my dad died years ago and I miss him too)

all I can say is try to be kind to yourself, it just hurts so much, I know xxx

[ssd]

Your mum sounds lovely, by the way, my mum was too, we're lucky to have had mums like that.

[dtsmum]

Thank you.
People base a lot of emphasis on the actual day someone died, the lead up to the day is hard too.
It's shit

I'm sorry for your loss too

[Pancakeflipper]

What a lovely last conversation to have.

[ssd]

thanks.

its very hard to get any sort of empathy in our situation, you really need people who have been through it, not friens or family who tell you not to live in the past/get on with your own life etc etc as this makes us feel lonlier and worse.

theres a great thread here your more than welcome to join in, its called "support thread for anyone who's lost a parent (5). join in, you'll find other women who get how your feeling .